he's so cute. i just wanna kill him.

pretty much the title says it all. i saw him yesterday and and and and and. he's just so pretty! wow. LOSER.

procrastinating.

yeah the story of my life.

the first day of school.

it was good, for the most part. my make up was perfect which is a plus! my outfit was alright, but the most terrible thing was the fact that my lip was bleeding all day. grosss.
there's a new girl! her name is melissa and i was really excited that this year there was a new girl this year because i was the new girl last year so i thought i would make friends with her, but i guess i learned durring lunch that she's been taken under the wing of thee "popular crowd" as they like think they are. so they let this new girl sit with them at lunch and be partners with them in class and its like ok...i wasnt new here last year or anything and they never did that for me. and it wouldnt bother me that they were nice to her if they hadnt been such bitches to me, i mean i know i was/am a dork but i didnt think i was thaaaaat bad. oh well i could really care less about most of them now (some of them are my very good friends), and it gives me comfort in knowing that they all secretly hate their like leader girl who really is a bitch.
idk why girls are the way they are.
i got a ride home with mal today so i didnt have to ride the gross bus/subway. yuck. oh and i love mal.

Movies i can watch over and over again.

ok so i got this inspiration while writing my last post and thought i'd make a list of the top movies that i can honestly watch and as soon as their over, rewind and watch again (i do this a lot when i'm sick hahah) so these are in no particular order and only a couple of them are even in my top five favorite movies, but these seem to just have that awesomeness that makes it so you can watch them repeatedly.


1. Dazed and confused.

" there's always going to be some other choice they're gonna try and make for you, but you gotta do want to do man. Let me tell you this, the older you do get the more rules they're gonna try to get you to follow. You just gotta keep livin' man, L-I-V-I-N. " Wooderson.

i know i already said this one in my last post but i just love it so much! and its such a good
movie its the last day of junior year school in 1976, a time this group of teenagers would never forget, if only they could remember haha. its hilarious, but not going to lie it's also made me cry. the real beauty of this movie is that its probably the most realistic high school movie EVER made, and its because of the friendships, i mean did you ever notice how in high school movies the cliques are so strict and crazy. i mean yes there are cliques in high school but they really aren't that rigid, in this movie too there are cliques but some people are friends with members of different cliques, of course not everyone likes each other in the movie just like in real life, and you have to watch the movie a couple times to realize the real dynamics of the friendships. take best friends pink and don for example (the center and right of above picture) they are both football players, but slater, and obvious (above left) is one of there best friends, but slater isn't friends pink and don's football buddies, benny and obanion. and that's how real high schools are! i mean its true not everyone is friends but not everyone is enemies either.

2. Stand By Me

"This is my age! I'm in the prime of my youth, and I'll never be young again!" Teddy Lachamp.

what an awesome movie about friendship and sticking together, another one that's made me laugh and cry. i love period movies and this one takes place in the fifties so the way everyone talks is hilarious, and the talent of such young actors is really amazing. one of River Phoenix's greatest movies in my opinion, and one of the best performances of his short life. i'm just reminiscing about the hard core crushes i had on all these boys (except vern hahah). i think in like eighth grade this movie pretty much owned me and best friend's lives. it's just that awesome.







3. Titanic

"I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what's gonna happen or, who I'm gonna meet, where I'm gonna wind up. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge and now here I am on the grandest ship in the world having champagne with you fine people. I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it" Jack Dawson.

go ahead and laugh, me heart will still go on.











4. Fight Club.

"this is your life, and its ending, one minute at a time." The Narrator.

This is one of my favorite movies and it is the epitome of awesome. EVERYONE should see this movie before they die, it has the most clever, thought provoking dialogue, and the biggest twist ending. Edward Norton is quite possibly the best actor ever and the fact that he's never won an award and really isn't that famous absolutely shocks and appalls me. Fight club also features the talents of Brad Pitt and Helena Bonham Carter. There really is no way to accurately sum up this movie because it is just so amazing. it's funny at times, violent, sad, confusing, and i think it really says a lot about how humans function. one of the best movies ever made. EVER.


5. Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day

"Pure and simple, I want you to marry me, and it's a one word conversation Delysia" Michael.

the critics called this movie a cocktail of a comedy, and i completely agree. it's just delightful! another period piece (surprise surprise) set in london just before world war 2. the story focuses around a young night club singer who wants to make it as movie star, and who cant decide between men. she hires a "social secretary" to help her juggle her boyfriends, and thus Miss Pettigrew is swept up in the glamorous life of fashion shows and cocktail parties. this is one of those movies that you would think could be watched once and that would be enough, but i don't know it just captivated me, and last spring when i had the flu, i watched it four times in one day!


6. the Goonies

"you know what? This one, this one right here. This was my dream, my wish. And it didn't come true. So I'm taking it back. I'm taking them all back. " Mouth.

i grew up on this movie. from the time i was seven to the time i was fourteen i really don't think a week went by where i didn't watch it once. i was pretty much in love with mikey and mouth, and andy was my idol. this is an absolutely amazing eighties classic. the reason i stopped watching it around fourteen was because we only had a vhs copy of it, and that was around the time everything was switching over dvd, and then for my sixteenth birthday one of my good friends got the dvd for me as a joke, and i've watched a couple times since. it's really your standard coming of age story about a group of best friends who are all going to move because the town jackass' father bought the land they live on and is making it a gulf course. on the last couple days they are all together, the friends find a treasure map, and set off to acquire fortune, fame, and hopefully not be forced to separate.




so those are the top six movies i could easily watch over and over again, and a lot of these aren't even on like my top ten list of favorite movies of all times. these ones just have something that makes them re watchable.
maybe one day i'll do a list of my favorites of all time...

summer's close

hi there!i'm in a super good mood for no apparent reason? hahah i dont know why tis quite strange. school starts tomorrow so i should be crying because this ends my wonderfully dazed and confused summer (have you ever seen dazed and confused? omg such a good quality movie i could watch it over and over again and i actually have.) but its ok i have my outfit all picked, and i just drank some chacolate milk so really its all good hahah.
oh and you know those essays i've been worrying about because i thought they were due on wednesday? yeah turns out they arent due until friday so i have like three whole days of pure procrastination. score!
and i'm not worrying about my adorables because number 1's girl friend goes to a college that's like three hundred miles away, and i mean she's going to meet so many people that there has to be someone that she feels something for right? i mean those are pretty good odds..
and number 2, i'm sure he'll come around soon, i mean he's got to and i sort of have a game plan for him anyways so hopefully that will work out. =]


none of these are my favorite characters from dazed and confused but a couple of them are up there: (l to r) black guy whose name is forget i'm pretty sure this is like the only sccene he's in, benny, pink, and don.

huminah!

blah blah blah. same old same old, i talked to number one a few days ago, i dont know if i said that already? ugggh that breaks my heart.
i start school in two or three days and good news! i almost finished one of those essays that i have for ap gov, and i sparknotesed the entire frankenstein and read all those summaries in one day so that was productive. yeah good. i still have to complete and do another one, and read an entire book for religion. fuck.
but its ok!
i cant wait to go to college. except i'm so scared that someone will forget all about me, and then its like all this now is just nothing.
idk. dogsitting!

the days comings and goings.

so the blink concert today, was canceled and rescheduled for some wednesday in late september right when school is, so yeah. how much does that suck?

adorable update! So i had it all planned out to text adorable 1 on wednesday!? well, now there's no need because he talked to me =]! this is a good sign i guess, i still dont think he really likes me in that sort of way.

i is tired!

Someone who never fails to make me smile.

So there's this kid who i've known since like first grade, he lives on my street, and he's hilarious, but not in the normal way people are funny by being obnoxious, just the things that he takes so seriously and the way he acts is hilarious.
he is so talented too! he's played piano for as long as i've known him, he's a great singer and an even better actor! (no i dont like like him i think he's like asexual anyways because he doesnt like girls and he doesnt like boys, most of the people in my graduating class think he'll probably become a priest )
so abou four years ago he got the idea that our block should have a block party, and my parents thought that was a great idea so they decided to help him with all the legal stuff, and he and my parents became the "Parker Block Party Committee" (a name he came up with).
well two years ago a lady moved to our street named mrs. lajacano, and she wanted to be a part of the Parker Block Party Committee, and Patrick (the kid) let her but was a little suspicious, and said these exact words to me at the St. Joes Rocks Darfur Battle of the Bands,

"I think Mrs. Lajacano is trying to steal my position as chairman of the Parker Block Party Committee, she keeps coming up with what she says are new ideas, that are really just things we've done before, and she sent out her own flyers for the block party after she knew i had already sent out all of mine, you really should come to a Parker Block Party Committee meeting and watch me lay down the law to her."

hahahahahahah he said all of this with a straight face too, keep in mind this is a seventeen year old boy. i just thought it was funny. he said other hilarious things to the same effect but i can only remember bits and pieces of those. he's an awesome kid.

i was just saying all that because today i saw the flyer for the Parker Block Party and when it listed the names of the committee Mrs. Lajacano wasnt there, and i thought to myself, well Patrick must be winning.

Tomorrow is my cousins birthday, and a concert.

so tomorrow, the second of september is a blink-182 concert in cleaveland and i really want to go very VERY badly, but unfortunately i dont have a ticket or way of getting there and it's my cousins fifteenth birthday. so that sucks.the three coolest guys EVER! closely followed by someone else who likes them even more than i do...

just adding on to the last adorable update...

when i was drunk i kind of told one of adorable 2's best friends that i like him and that all his girlfriends have been fat ugly whores. wow.

Just another day.

hi there. it is exactly two thirteen on the first of september. all my sisters are at the zoo, and i was going to go, but then i remembered i really dont like the zoo.
i'm dog sitting again today which is boring, but at least it makes good money, and then later i should probably make some progress with those essays that i have to do, i've already given up on reading Frankenstein and i'm just going to spark notes the entire thing. shhh. hahah. i know i will actually finish those essays because i'm the type of person that cant just not do my homework, but i hope i get an ok grade on them too, because i really want to do well this year in all aspects of my life.

in other news...

my friend has this thing where she gives updates on her soul mates and i really like that and i think i might have to copy her and call it my adorable update, because my two boys are ADORABLE!

adorable number 1 is the one who i absolutely love, i've only known him since like january, but it doesnt matter. anyways he doesnt really have anything, i havent talked to him in a little under a week, but i'm planning on texting him the day after tomorrow (i know i'm a psyco who plans out when they're going to text the person they like, but i dont want to make myself too obvious and all that jazz!) so i cant wait for that!

now adorable number two i've liked since i was in eighth grade, so that kind of a long time, and idk if he knows that i like him (i'm wondering how he could not know because its not like i'm very subtle with my feelings) but since i've liked him he's had like three girlfriends and they've all been fat ugly whores (well i know they're fat and ugly and one was a whore but idk about the others...) and i was really excited for this summer because i thought i would get to see him a lot, and even though i did he has a girlfriend so its not like anything could happen anyways. now she's in college (he's around my age) so i thought for sure they would break up before she left because she's going away but they're trying the whole long distance thing which pretty much sucks big black dick for me. but i mean they have to break up soon it's not like they're going to get married or anything...god i hope they dont get married. and when they do finally break up i'll be there to tell him exactly how i feel! (unless of course number one comes around then this guy is out of the picture, i mean come on i've liked him for this long and i'm pretty sure he knows it, why would i still even give him the time of day?)
anyways i'm not sure i even like him that much anymore, or it could be that i've liked him for so long, now its just a habbit...

hahahah what a sad sad story.