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Weirdness

i'm in a really good mood despite the fact that life sucks right now. well i know it probably could be way worse, but right now's looking pretty shitty:
i have two four page essays to write in one week which wouldnt be that bad if i had the text book and stuff but i dont
i have a whole novel to read
i just ate my weight in oreos and peanut butter
its getting later and i cant sleep.

so there's a list for ya! i love making lists, i make lots of them all the time in my head during boring classes, when my parents are yelling at me, while watching an entertaining movie, the only type of lists i dont like making are shopping lists, not because i dont enjoy listing stuff i need but because i just dont like shopping really at all.

oh let me just add to the above list, he still doesnt like me in quite the same way that i like him.

but i dont know despite all this i'm in kind of a good mood, is that weird?

The Lonely Hearts Club

i keep telling my self what a waste of time boys are.

sweater vests

hi. so i'm dog sitting, which is really super boring, but i get paid to do it so what evs.

i would like to take this opportunity to talk about sweater vests. sweater vests on boys are fucking hot. exibit A:

but serisously it doesnt matter who the guy is if he's wearing a sweater vest he's cute. very cute. like this one time at reahearsal for our school musical all the boys just happened to be wearing sweater vests, and i was in heaven. i'm sorry they're just really attractive. i can never resist a boy in a sweater vest. i'm pretty sure its scientifically impossible.

ok i'm done making myself look like a freak!

i actually did go to the gym today which i havent done in a while but i'm pretty sure it doesnt count if afterwards i eat like a whole pizza and a milkshake. thats another thing i love, milkshakes! i'll save that for another day though =]

in time things rearrange, i am so sick of chasing you.

but what do i get since i just seem to lose?
<3

Good Morning Good Morning!

Starting the Government papers today (shoot me in the face)

i should probably work out, and get some of this chubby off of me but i really dont feel like it. And i just ate a doughnut.

i love sprinkles!

I would just like to make myself perfectly clear

Tanning beds give you cancer, starbucks is over priced shit, big sunglass make you look like a bug, edward cullen isnt real, and joe jonas most likely is gay.

god i hate those girls. if i ever become one, shoot me.


i think i'll go to bed watching Moulin Rouge tonight.

i know satine is a prostotute, but she's still kind of my idol.

oh the late nights..

ok i thought that last entry about school and shit would be the last one and then i would go to sleep but because i cant sleep i shall just have to write some more!

so my family is crazy.

my parents arent together and so when i'm with my mom its just us but then when i'm with my dad i get a step mom and four little half sisters. which i'm ok with some of the time, but most of the time its just like i'm an intrusion on what would have been the perfect little family.

but i like my stepmom and half sisters, i really do, although when i'm around my stepmom i'm always sure to be extra polite and nice because even though i've known her since i was four its still almost like i have to prove that i'm good enough. weird. most of the time i'm at my dads house though i spend in my room or not at home.

and i can hear people walking around upstairs and i swear to god if they come down and tell me to go to sleep i will raise all hell i dont give a shit that its one thirty in the morning i will wake the fucking neightbors that would be ridiculous.

hahah it was just someone going to the bathroom. i'm tired and paranoid.

but i cant effing sleep. this will most likely not be the last note of the night.

so i cant sleep, therefore i shall rant.


so school for me starts in about eight days and i'm really nervous. normally i wouldnt be nervous because it's just school and what is there really to worry about? but i do worry about one thing in particular: ok so i did really well all year in US History, and only got one multiple choice question wrong on the regents, and so i decided to take AP Governmentfor my senior year in the hopes of getting into notre dame. well as it turns out there was an assignment for people talking AP government, we had to like read an entire text book and outline all the chapters. usually its only the AP US history kids who take the AP Government next year, so the teacher went into their class and gave them advice and passed out the books and stuff but because i wasnt in AP US, i never got the text book, so i cant do the assignment right?

but i dont want to sound all victimized like how could i do it without the book, so i was going to email the teacher and tell him, well now there's eight days until school starts and i think he would find it a little irresponsible that i'm starting so late. i really dont know what to do, and i would email the schedule lady and ask if i can drop AP Government, but i really want to take the class and she kind of scares the shit out of me.

ok because i didnt want to be a little whining bitch i decided to go to the teachers page and look at what needed to be done, there was the assignment that requires the book (cant do that one) but there are also some essays that, while the text book would help, i could probably just do based on stuff i find on the internet.

still i'm fucking screwed. whose idea was it to take AP? hahah oh yeah. mine.

"I'll still remember your birthday even after you've forgotten all about me..."

that was one of my favorites from postsecret.com
and it just reminded me of me. as if a could forget me hahah.

well i found her!

and her blog is so colorful and awesome and has all these pictures. its very snazzy maybe mine can be like that one day. probably not.

i'm a tad bit pessimistic i just always think of the absolute worse scenario that could come out of a situation. but i dont act like a stereotypical pessimistic person. most of it just happens in my head and its the result of over analyzing EVERYTHING. especially if i like someone.

and i like someone a lot.

right now im at post secret looking at people's secrets some of them make me laugh, some of them make me cry, but they are all beautiful.

i am currently trying to find my friend with a fashion blog but i really dont know how this website works. at all. where are you dearest?!

sorry for the atrocious english of my last post. i'll try to be better. of course i have no idea who i'm apologizing to because its not like anyone's actually following me....it's as though i'm talking to nothing. hahah that was kind of poetic. ok not really.

hi. let's be friends!

a little about myself:
i like movies and music a lot.
i also like musicals.
i'm a really obsessive person i think i have some degree of ocd. i dont know its strange but if i find a movie or song i like i'll listen to it, or watch it over and over again. or if i find some actor i like i'll get all their movies and watch them all in order of the time period in which they took place.
i'm pretty much just another clone of my media driven environment. =]

think i'm strange? you have no idea...